I am in a coma. did not expect. It also surprised doctors and family members, and my physical condition is not bad. I looked like I was lost on the boxing ring – both front teeth were gone, my tongue doubled and my body was seriously injured.

The pressure to draw the mother's life energy from the dying embers has surpassed me. One thing that mother's eldest daughter forbids to help: save broken animals and restore them to health.

When I focused on the bright hospital lights, I saw my sad little mother sitting next to my roaring sister. "I just became your biggest enemy." This is the first sentence I heard her say. She played this role fully and caused immeasurable damage to my life before and after.

The energy that my brothers and sisters exude on me or anyone who challenges her is the reason I don't want to be on this planet. It poisons people like me. Some of us are unable to absorb toxic energy and maintain balance. We are writers, artists and creators from all walks of life. We create together with the universe and bring our art version to the world to improve vibration.

I replace myself by focusing on the needs of others and make myself weak. A better plan is to extend the focus on “deposits,” but always maintain enough returns to maintain a healthy, balanced life.

The policeman who appeared next to the hospital bed said, "Can you stand it?" He helped me stand up and added, "I don't want to curse you unless you have to." I know, but he didn't, "I didn't fight. "I surrendered."

This is a good thing, because at that point, I am no longer free. The first time I reached the door handle was awake. It does not exist. I can't open it. Only people in white have the right to let me go.

When I learned that "family" [my sister] asked ' permanent placement ', waking up soon appeared. The nurse/social worker/white said they no longer did that. She told me that this is "checking your medication instead of a temporary stop of imprisonment." I am very happy that Sis thinks that my future is so high.

"This is over," I told myself. I am ready to listen to anyone with an answer. I don't know if the doctor doesn't know how to deal with alcoholics. They are confused because many drinkers are thinking about why we do what we do.

A chemically unbalanced brain will make a deadly choice. This is my definition of insanity.

I need Sane Sherry to come back. No one misses her more than I do.

party! I almost committed suicide. was originally published on Spring